It's so weird being in love all over again. Lik, youre starting to listen to Racheal Yamagata and Fiona Apple coz their dreamy vocals just makes you float on air. You keep repeating the same songs all over and over again coz it feels as if youre living a fantasy and that smile stay plastered on your face throughout.

It's funny how one can be frenz for so long and yet, have never seen it coming. It's like youve never imagined coz you thought he was juz your really good fren. A really good fren whom you write songs with, sing with, jam with, and have coffee with. All the time youve thought back about how you juz shrugged and simply saying "Nah, thats so impossible", not realising that all the similarities might juz lead to something..

It's juz so weird.

Funny weird.

Cannot-be-explained weird.

Words-cannot-express weird.

Okay, everything's juz weird. But in a good way. It's happening so quickly, i dont know how to start. Will it be different? All the funny questions.. Whoa scary.. Haa.
Im curled up like a ball, my arms around my legs hugging them tightly onto my chest. The weather's so cold, especially at night time. It was drizzling slightly in the afternoon anyway - At least there wasnt a thunderstorm like the past few days.


I cant help it. I really cant. Those voices in my head are yelling, screaming, telling me to give up. Nobody likes you. Nobody loves you. Stop trying and quit pretending to be bubbly. I want to scream so loud till everyone in the world turns deaf. But that would probably mean id have no more voice left after.


Why cant i be normal? Why cant i FEEL normal? Urgh.


Why cant i juz feel loved again? Im so unwanted. Why cant i juz do everything right? You do not like me. You would not like me. Not ever. At least thats what i feel. Give it up, girl..


Street Festival.. Cant wait! Please please please let it be fun and enjoyable! Really dont wanna screw up on that day. Ill do my best, i promise! :D Doll Thrash will rock the stage! Wont let you guys down.. :)


Sheeks!! How am i gonna get rid of acne in less than 24 hrs?? Of all days, it had to happen to me now.. I've tried lotsa various ways.. Toothpaste, acne treatment cream, not putting make up (now thats a big sacrifice to me you know!).. Blahh.. Please let it be ok by tml morning.. Then, i'd conceal it with foundation.. UrGhHh.. Ugly duckling..! :(


Dont want it to affect my tml...
Omiegawd!!

I so dun wanna be in love, i so dun wanna be in lovee!!! I so dun wanna feel the pain of being rejected again.. Now you know why im always pessimistic about myself.. Im ugly, plus ive got no life..

You'd definetly not like me..

I can see it.. It's so obvious.. I really enjoyed what we shared today.. I cant hide the fact that youre so much like me in a way.. Stop being like me!! It's super scary.. Its making me smile more, feel more.. Oh noo.. I dont even know you that well..!

Boring.. That's what you must think of me.. You'd never wanna see me again.. I'd expect no more smses from you from tml onwards.. I'd say goodbye to you forever.. Then that'll be it..

I dont even know why im feeling this way.. I dun even know you.. Who are you? Youre average, although you smell good.. Youre sweet, extremely cute in a way.. Youre a gamer, but then.. Howd it be like kissing you? Gawd..! I think im paranoid and mentally insane.. Yep, thats what you might think too..

*Screams*! I dun wanna fall in love again!!!
Why is it that i am not able to click with my peers at work? Do you guys always have to sulk and sigh when you dont like what you see? Why cant you at least give me some encouragement or enlighten me a little.. Sheeks.. I know i havent been working alot lately ever since school started, but cant you see that im trying my very best to make you guys happy?

Maybe i am just too non versatile.. Ive been working for 6 months and i cant even handle slams.. I cant make a quality drink and i am still confused.. Someone please help me.. I am really slow and sometimes you pple juz dont understand..

Dont get me wrong.. I love the crew.. You guys are fun loving pple and i love chilling out with ya all but.. When it comes to work, we juz cant click.. It's like as if ive been brought down.. Yes, i am disappointed with myself abt that but please dont make it worse for me coz i am trying very hard.. I juz dont understand why im not able to laugh, joke and goof around with my seniors at work.. Everyone's so serious that it becomes scary.. *Shrugs*


Anyway.. *Toot* my past entries.. *Toot* my old life coz ive decided to look forward and not look back.. But then, it doesnt mean that my crap would stop.. heh.. Im over and done with my past life and im never gonna regret that.. If you guys must know, yepz i got over the guy.. YippeEe! Free at last.. hAha.. =D

Am so tired.. Exams tml.. Gonna die big time.. urGhh!!

But then again.. The holz are coming! Woo!

It's so weird being in love all over again. Lik, youre starting to listen to Racheal Yamagata and Fiona Apple coz their dreamy vocals just makes you float on air. You keep repeating the same songs all over and over again coz it feels as if youre living a fantasy and that smile stay plastered on your face throughout.

It's funny how one can be frenz for so long and yet, have never seen it coming. It's like youve never imagined coz you thought he was juz your really good fren. A really good fren whom you write songs with, sing with, jam with, and have coffee with. All the time youve thought back about how you juz shrugged and simply saying "Nah, thats so impossible", not realising that all the similarities might juz lead to something..

It's juz so weird.

Funny weird.

Cannot-be-explained weird.

Words-cannot-express weird.

Okay, everything's juz weird. But in a good way. It's happening so quickly, i dont know how to start. Will it be different? All the funny questions.. Whoa scary.. Haa.